JULY. 🅴

[Instrumental In/Vocalizing]
[Break]
Baby, I've made excuses – thought he could be the reason,
you were so detached from me, at least that's what it feels like.
Knowing it's not my business – wanted to show you different,
what my loves feel like, I'd do right, didn't have to worry..
No, didn't think it'd be easy..
I don't, want to say I've wasted my time..
Don't know, still don't know every side..
But maybe he was right about you, I couldn't see it, but now I do..
I've been through the worst of it before you, I just can't be,
damaged like you.
Like you, are..
I won't, I won't..

[Instrumental/Vocalizing]

[Instrumental/Transition]
[Verse 1]
Truly just don't get it, and I've tried to –
tried to understand you, I did.
Your back against the wall, alone for it all –
before me, I know.
That you've been hurt before, it's fucking with your core –
believe me, I could see it all.

[Chorus]
Such a tragedy, how you and me – we're unraveling,
at the seams, no, it's not where I thought we'd be.
Turning your empathy, to self pitying – your soliloquies,
talking shit on social media, you'll pathetically justify.

[Verse 2]
Damn, it's just not clicking, or maybe it is –
I’d just hate to admit it, I would.
To feel like I've been used, my kindness feels abused –
after me, I know.
Another's in bed to replace me from your head –
typical, just wanted to give you my love.
My love.

[Chorus]

[Outro]
Acting the way you are, feels like I didn't know, you –
not like he would've known, maybe that's why he left, you –
show who you really are, once I'm not good enough, for you –
convince yourself enough, after the damage is done.

written by; derrick russell jones.
produced by; waves + yogic beats.
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*🅴 marked as parental advisory; explicit content.