nervous.

[Instrumental In]
[Verse 1]
Usually, against better judgement,
brutally, don’t care being honest right now –
I want this, I want you but I feel so conflicted.
‘Cause you don’t know my deepest,
haven’t seen the worst yet, I’m trying right now –
this ain’t a negation to you, you’re valid to me too.

[Pre-Chorus]
So I, could take my sweet time –
on my knees and by your side.
It feels like I wanna die, sometimes,
you make it hard for me.
To take my sweet time –
in your hands my waist and thighs.
Feels like a committing crime,
can’t explain why, why.

[Chorus]
Don’t know why I’m nervous,
don’t know why I’m hurting, no.
Tell me that I’m worth it (you're worth it, babe),
tell me I deserve this, I know.
You could treat me different,
you would love me more than, I’ve had so.
But I’m just so..

[Bridge]
Complex in trauma, one false move and I’m on my way –
habits I’ve honored, wouldn’t have anything left to say –
at least I’d hope so, playing pretend is my toxic trait –
and I don’t want to demonstrate, don’t want to play that way with you..

[Instrumental/Vocalizing Out]

written by; derrick russell jones.
produced by; sirius.
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